So I have taken a step back and looked deeply into my life. I think I have realized that the only person that can make me happy is me. I don't need a specific someone to fill in the gaps; I need to fill them in for myself before I turn to another to complete me. I've been searching the city for someone to make me happy but it took a long hard look at myself to make me see that I am the only person that can fix what is wrong with me. It really is no wonder that I have chased off so many people; I'm a complete and total mess. It may not show too much on the outside but when I let my walls down and allow someone access they see me for what I am they tuck their tail an run.

I'm not saying that I should be admitted to a psych ward but I do need to fix a few things. For so long I have yearned for my big dreams to come true but have always been let down because I cannot and have no means to make it happen. We as humans can really achieve greatness but only make things change if they themselves allow it. Your dreams can only come true if you make them come true. It is a long and difficult road but it will happen. I'm not saying that we all can me millionaires and have fancy houses and fast cars but you can at least be happy and comfortable with who you are.

They should really teach these skills in school. I think that education is almost a waste. Schools are teaching algebra and proper grammar but where is the common sense class? Why isn't this taught to our children? Our education system is flawed. Most of what I learned in school I never use in my daily life. Sure, basic algebra comes into play occasionally as well as spelling and grammar but why aren't life skills taught? The life skills I have soaked in have only really been taken in within the last decade. If I was taught in school how to manage my finances and how to make adult decisions like picking the right vehicle and living within your means I probably would not be in the financial situation I am in now. Why as children are we not groomed for excellence as a human? I think that that concept alone should be a higher priority than making sure you can solve for X.

As I now gaze over our beautiful city and see the mountains I see how far we have come as a race but we still have so far to go. I will try to apply that knowledge to myself. I really have come a long way in life but only now see that there is still an arduous journey ahead to reach where I want to be. Sure, I can take passengers but I am in the driver seat. I would hope that others see this and that they will make themselves better to make everything better. We don't need to fight wars over land and religion, there is plenty of space for us all and the diversity of beliefs is what makes us all individuals. Life shouldn't be a competition for a stronger foothold, it should be everyone working together for a greater good. There is so much that we do not know about ourselves and the world around us, why do we bicker over petty things?