Keeping My Eyes On The Skies.

From my wishes of being a normal, functioning, part of society I have realized that I really kind of am. I pay taxes, I own a car, I have a job and I interact with the world. Is there really much else to do before you die? I'm sure that most people have dreams of grandeur but I am pretty sure that most people will only DREAM of these things and never actually achieve them. The people that truly do achieve their grand dreams only make up a small percentage of the population. I mean, how many Gandhi's have there really been? How many Hitler's even? How many people arrive at that point where they are at the top?

I am quite okay with being mediocre. I guess you just have to be happy and comfortable with who you are to be truly successful. Who could really ask for more? I know that I am a long way from being successful if that is my gauge. It really takes a lot to be comfortable within your own skin. I have been slapped in the face by the realization that you have to love yourself before being able to love someone else. I would say that is the hardest part. Loving yourself is NOT an easy task especially in the world as it exists today. There are too many stigmas, too many opinions to worry about. Too many people have such influence over how the masses look at themselves as well as others. Hell, even certain clothing designers will not carry their lines in sizes for the general public. Granted, the general public of the United States is unhealthily overweight. I'm not saying that we should all have the bodies of gods and goddesses but we really should be a much healthier country.

Sorry, going off on a tangent. Where was I?

Ah, yes. Loving yourself. I see now that I have to see myself in a different light. I have to see myself as being a fully capable person able to do pretty much anything that I can dream of. Look at the human race as a whole. We have come so far as a civilization. WE CAN FLY! WE CAN GO TO THE MOON! WE CAN CURE DISEASES! 1000 years ago many of the things we have now were only dreamed of and now they are possible. Where will we be 1000 years from now? Seriously, WHERE? The sky is not even the limit anymore!

I guess now I just need to work these ideals into my own life. It will not be easy but it is a much better route that self loathing. It almost seems as though I am at a turning point. Lets hope that I don't miss my exit on the highway of life.